Forgiveness: An Open Letter

Someone sent me a message about forgiveness and it made me think I do hold grudges and I stay angry with folx But that is becuz most of the time when I forgive people they find another way to shit on me But I want to turn over a new leaf and my ass is tired of being mad So here goes:
1. I forgive you for taking my kindness and using it to benefit you. I cared about you a great deal but, u knew we did not want that same things but you forgot to tell me that. I can forgive you now becuz I know I am better off with you out of my life.

2. I forgive you for making my living situation hell. I had no idea that you had an addiction. I will always love you, but I can't help you if you can't help yourself. So know I wish you the best, but I have to keep my distance.

3. I forgive you. Stop apologizing for how you feel. It hurts and its gonna hurt, but I'm a strong person who doesn't give up that easy. Maybe I will add on later

It's been a long time....

Since I was here last plenty has changed. One of my co-workers was laid off, my other co-worker obtained a new job and the third is leaving soon. I feel trapped and stuck here @ Chickenhead University. I have applied for several different positions and hopefully something will come through for me. I am desperate at this point. Besides, everybody leaving me, we were relocated from our nice quiet office, to a busy Financial Aid area where people can see all that you do. I don't know if that was the sole purpose, but it is extra annoying. Now I get to hear students complaining as loud as they can about the wait and how much Chickenhead University sucks. What a pleasure!!!!! I am trying to be patient and I am praying everyday, But I don't know that I am going to make it too much longer. Please pray for me!!!!

Where do I go from here?

I have decided that maybe Chickenhead University is not for me. Maybe a more traditional school is where I need to be or possibly teaching the childfren the err of their ways. I don't know about robbing the kids and watching them fail, while I take my paycheck home and eat good. I tell you it bothers me everyday, but some students make me feel good about what I do. They get and they succeed, but that is very few at best.

So after being told today that I don't do my job because I am not helping them rob enough children, I am a tad bit disillusioned. The question is where do I go from here? I want to start my own business, I want to write a book, I want run a record label, I want to be the next Mona Scott........WHERE DO I START?????? This is where my journey begins, phasing myself out of Chickenhead University. Wish me luck!!!!

I destroy dreams for a living....

Erryday I hear the same story:

Me: So what do you want to do with your degree in Media?
Them: Umma start my own record label/studio/do my music..
Me: Umm hmmm

You see if I tell them that u don't have to spend 60K on a degree to do that, I could lose my job
So I allow them to put themselves in great debt and never complete the education they began....
So days I am Harriet Tubman and I tell students about the promise land that is one third the cost and far more reputable....
Corporate jobs suck.......

I still can't stop blushing......

A day @ Chickenhead U
I work with "students" all day.
They range in age from fresh outta high school to midlife crisis/grandma getting back in school age
Well I just helped this student and I had to turn away from him becuz he was FIONE!!!!!!
Nice tall chocolate brotha, beard was all trimmed up, he smelled good, nice white smile.....my ass was blushing the whole time....
And since I am in a relationship, I felt bad even feeling that way. But I know I am only human and it is normal to feel an attraction towards someone who is relatively good looking. I must be loosing my mind or something. But I wish I knew someone that I could hook him up with. I have to think about it, get into my Chuck Woolerey thought process. Think girl, think!!!!!!!

How nosey are you?

In recent weeks, people have put their nose where is does not belong. And I am plain sick of it. If I did not ask for your help, then don't give it. There is no need to tell people things about me that I told u in confidence. Don't go behind my back asking other people about me and what I have been up to. If you want to know ask me. I think it is immature and childish. Grow the fuck up!!!! *Rant over*

I back in the land of Chickenheads, but the chiks are on a break for right now. But I have a question for people. When did it become cute for young girls to behave like boys. I am under the assumption that these girls like girls, but I thought that if u were gay u wanted someone of the same sex (feminine, I mean). Can someone explain this to me? It was just a thought.

I am a big ass cry baby.....

This lady on the radio won $10,084 this morning
Of course I was wishing it was my ass, but the lady started crying because she said she had just lost her job and that she really needed the money. Then she wakes up her husband and tells him, then they cry some more. My retarded ass is driving down Peachtree wiping tears and trying not to hit the Escalade beside me.So I get to work and I am fine...so I think. Then Van Hunt "What can I say" comes on and my eyes start to swell. WHAT THE FUCK!!!!! I think I need a lil Jesus this weekend, so who wants go to church?????